Saturday, April 7, 2007
12:30 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSLYN!!

Today is good friday. Literally.

Took the mrt to Pasir ris to go to jesslyn's birthday chalet. We went there early so we could decorate the pavillion. It felt good to be able to see at least 4 of my sexy7 again. But somehow, just somehow, there seem to be this translucent sheet of glass between me and them, making things blurry and vague, like as if they're not totally there at all.

Seeing how cheryl and gen talk in a way I've never seen before, I felt weird. Seeing how cheryl and I dont talk in the way we used to be, I felt weird. Seeing how cheryl play fight with sophie like I've never seen before, I felt weird. Before I leave the chalet, Angel cried at one side, but I dont know why. Wanting to comfort her, I went over, and asked what was wrong, she wouldnt tell. When gen came over, she asked gen to walk with her outside and said bye bye to me. I felt weird.

I guess they've moved on, forming new bonds with others that are growing stronger by the day. Yet I am being left behind. I dont blame them, honestly I dont. It's not something that one can control, cause that's just the way it's going to be.

Jesslyn's bro sent me home by car. During the ride, he asked me about AC. He told me that when he went to NJC, all of his frens went to poly. He was preoccupied with all the mounting school work and cca, and he had not many frens to have fun with for the first 6 months. He said that during that 6 months, going to school made him very sian. But after that, things were OK, and i guess he liked NJ. He told me that everything would be ok for me in the end.

I was really grateful that he told me his experience. Although it might take as long as 6 months, or perhaps even longer, I suppose I can expect things to turn out fine for me.

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 Vivo City after cheerleading competition.


GAWD look at that bangladash trying to camwhore with us!!!


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